I hate my life. here is my attempt for something called a "turning point"
Current mood: weird

Last weekend is going to ruin my life.

1.got caught sneaking out

2. got a ticket while drinving home from sneaking out

3. pissed people off

4. lost lots of brain cells

5.going crazy about my college applications

6. my dad asked me if i smoked and wtf im always doing out at nite cause hes not stupid. so im guessing he knows i go out but except this time i got caught.

I met someone special today. made me believe in God little more.
i was at the gym working out and this cockdiesel guy was working out near me. theres alot at gold's gym. for somereason i decided to ask him how long hes been working out.
turns out hes a pastor. he got into a huge accident when he was 18. he got hit head on by a amtrak train 90 mph... and survived. he said it was the mercy of god. he said hes thankful of god for giving him the breathe of life do live let alone able to live life and also work out. his left arm was supposed to be useless but now hes 48 and hes in perfect health built like crazy.

He said "It was like god was giving me a purpose to live"

how many people do u know that gets hit with anything fast as 90 mph and live?

i felt that i was supposed to meet him. i dont want to be the "bad apple" out of my friends anymore. i know they think of me like that and it sucks.

he is a pastor at Celebration Church... dont know where it is yet. but i want to talk to him some more. i want to go to his services.

im sure i said something like this before... so i dont know.  i want to stick with this one.

Bayside(RIP Beatz)

Don't Call Me Peanut

Drink up beautiful.
I spiked your cup with angst and a heart attack,
'cause I've got so much trapped
It's all because of you.
So I figured you might like some back.

And when I see her
I'll tell her what's been on my mind
all these sleepless nights.
She'll recite her excuses
Put my tail between these legs of mine
like I do all the time.

I can't live my life
knowing you'll be in his arms each time I blink my eyes.
Know what goes on behind my back every night,
afraid I'll never leave,
afraid I'll never know what's good for me.

And now you say that,
you say you love me.
Well I may have your heart,
he has your body.
And now you swear that you're being honest,
but you're not honest,
and you never could be.

Currently listening: Bayside By Bayside Release date: By 23 August, 2005

18 TODAY!!! AWESOME TIME LAST NITE AND NOW GOING TO CHURCH... def  after a shower. funny how i found time to get on this damn thing. but only because im a loser.

EDIT

didnt have much time to write earlier but yea. today was fun. i saw everyone i invited that i HAD to see except for few. but most of my loved ones were there. thx guys.

yea... but i spent some of my day getting bitched at by my parents thx to CHRISTINA DAVIDSON. she decided to spray people with this hair thing and it got everywhere because the people she sprayed... decided to lay everywhere... theres random red spots all over my house. so i got bitched at for that... u know the the couch set that is kinda there for show??? well its has red spots on it now.

i didnt get to see my gf last nite and when i did get to see her it was at church... i didnt even get to talk to her that much and she was being all wierd towards me! it hurt.

another thing im starting to hate with passion... those 20 or higher year old people trying to pick up highschool chicks... fuck u guys. wat u cant get laid by someone ur age? i mean there are some exceptions to that cause i do believe some people are meant to be together... or just can make eachother really happy... but wtf? screw u pedophiles... yea.

yep , but still loved this birthday.

shes so awesome. she makes me smile alot.

9-27-05 to... who knows

yea... game tommorow... AT University of Christian at 7... then ACT saturday morning then party all day and nite... I might get some subs and new CD player and all that. that should be fun. Nick's trying to hook me up. but i know not to get anything unless there is a amp on the deal. fun day today. hung out with a new friend of mine. shes freaking beautiful and amazing.... with a low self esteem. o great another one huh? but, im playing everything tommorow except punt... so im gonna be on the field the whole time.

umm ima be tooooo dead to take the ACT... fokkkkk.

take care people.